Struggling in the volcano of exam and friends

Wah, didnt upload my status for a month.

impressed by my own determination to not approach laptop.

nolah, actually i was too too too busy for the past few weeks.

It was a bio topic test last week and i was struggling.

I was very stressed bcuz i worried if i fail to answer to question as though topic test 1.

I studied and studied, until my soul nearly collapses.

I wanted to cry, but tears did not roll down, even one drop.

I used to be strong, used to manage the stress well,

but now, i found myself hard to face it.

May be, it is because the change of environment.

May be, it is because i miss my ex-schoolmates very much.

May be, it is because my family stays far from me.

I miss them, all the time.

The people surrounding me here always told me that,

"that is devil in their mind, do not believe them too deep."

Why do we think this world so negatively?

Why do we make it so complex?

Why don't we make the world full of happiness and simple?

Why don't we purify our heart?

Friends, don't tell me about the negative things anymore.

I just want to be a positive thinker.

Ya, I know I am too naive and too optimistic,

but at least this makes me happy, at least this make me free from troubles.

"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Proverbs 17:17

Ya, friends are important in my life.

i hope i am be with you when you are in trouble.

i hope you'll remember me when you are in trouble.

i hope i can offer my help when you are in trouble.

However, friends, do you know?

one word from your mouth can easily hurt me.

one action of you would make a wound on my heart.

Friends, I just want to treat you with my best.

but why, you do not appreciate it?

why, you still think of the people here is devil?

why, you still think that people here have a devil plan before they do a thing?

why, you still complain although you get the grace from God to study here?

why, you never feel satisfied?

what is a friend???

I worry if i turn to be a selfish and devil girl.

I worry if i chase you (friends) out from my heart.

I just want to try my best to bring you (friends) happy.

and this is the only way i can be happy, with the people around me live happily.