Give or Keep

I have considered for so many days...give or keep?
Give, because I want to make you pleased, let you know that there is still someone care about you.
Keep, because I do not have enough courage.
I regret, and I am now considering a lot of things.
I am afraid if I would make a wrong decision again.

Before this, I do not know how to appreciate.
All I know is complaining, and blaming that you do not care about me.
However, now I just realize that, I was the one that do not care about you.
You would think of me whenever there is something interesting.
But I, I would only make you disappointed, asking you to care about me more.
I just know to ask for something, but I never think of giving.

“Happiness is not how much you get; it is how much you give”
Finally I understand this.
But it's been too late……