Blue Mood

Cried so many times since I came back to shah alam after chinese new year.

Is my hormone got any problem? Is there any hormone controlling tear?

I am not a girl who likes to cry, but I felt helpless and cried for how many time, I couldn't count.

Fear is hovering above me.

I am afraid, but I do not know what I am afraid of.

loneliness? tests? I do not know.

I cried and cried, thinking a lot of nonsense.

It's seem like my mind went haywire, it was uncontrollably gone to a negative way.

Thank you friends, especially Opener ChuiYee as well as Geok San,

thanks for accompanying me when i was down.

thanks for supporting me when i was in doubt.

thanks for giving me advises when i need them.

thanks for let me know that you are always be with me.

When I found nowhere to lean on,

friends, you lend me your shoulders...

When I found nobody to express my feeling,

friends, you are always willing to listen to me...

Most importantly,

You guys did not turn away from me when I was moody,

You guys did not laugh at me when I was crying...

Thanks friends...sincerely...

你们都是我的最爱，舍不得~2010农历新年

匆匆的一聚，大家又各分东西哦。

错，应该说“各分南北”比较适合。

新年眨眼间就过去了，时间溜得真是快。

要待何时，我们才能够再次相聚？

要待何时，我们才能够闲话家常？

跟你们一起度过的每一分每一秒，我都珍惜着。

我知道，记忆是不能够拷贝的，只能放在脑袋里慢慢品尝。

酸甜苦辣，我们都一起走过，重要的是，我们从未把当中的任何一个遗忘。

一想起我们都从中学毕业，

一想起我们一年里只有那么短暂的时间相聚，

我不得不怀疑，我们以后相聚一起的时光，会不会变得更加短暂？

我抱怨着，为什么彼咯没有学院大学？

我咕哝着，为什么大家不能继续在一起升学？

为什么偏偏就有那么一句格言说：“天下无不散的宴席”？

朋友阿，我真的舍不得你们。。。

我不晓得，我们以后会是如何，

但愿，我们经常聚一聚，

但愿，我们珍惜彼此。。。

但愿，我们的友谊永固。。。

孔明灯续续升天，带着我们的希望，传达到天际，炫耀着我们之间的友谊。。。

Give or Keep

I have considered for so many days...give or keep?
Give, because I want to make you pleased, let you know that there is still someone care about you.
Keep, because I do not have enough courage.
I regret, and I am now considering a lot of things.
I am afraid if I would make a wrong decision again.

Before this, I do not know how to appreciate.
All I know is complaining, and blaming that you do not care about me.
However, now I just realize that, I was the one that do not care about you.
You would think of me whenever there is something interesting.
But I, I would only make you disappointed, asking you to care about me more.
I just know to ask for something, but I never think of giving.

“Happiness is not how much you get; it is how much you give”
Finally I understand this.
But it's been too late……

CNY without you

Chinese New Year passed in a blink of eyes. This CNY, there were many things happening.
Something happens until you can’t celebrate this CNY with us.
Finally I found out, you are important to me.
I know that I just used to be with you.
And I know I will overcome loneliness during this CNY as well as valentine day.
There is no any medicine I can take to cure this condition happened in me.
Only “TIME” could help me working this out.

You went back so early, until I do not have any opportunity to talk with you.
I believe that we should have had conservation.
But things happened too sudden.
Is this our fate?

Are you mad with me?
I am really sorry to what I have done to you.
Would you forgive me?